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Name: emily
Birthday: 5/27/1993
Gender: Female
Interests: loves Jesus. loves her girlfriends, food, adam levine as a present. loves you!
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Occupation: ms.green from m'n'm.
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Member Since:
5/25/2007
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| i'm totally neglecting my xanga. honestly...but that's cause i've been perpetually hooked onto my tumblr. haha. well whoever out there.. if you want to know what's the url of my tumblr. just ask k.
it's been an awesome week. but i can hardly remember what i did.
yesterday was fun. like really fun.
a mini movie marathon.. why miny? cause we only like watched 2 movies. 'i hate valentine's day' and 'percy jackson'
watched the 1st one with heather, jeremy and mel.
2nd one with jeremy,junie,mel,henry and james
heather dear had to leave early.. she was exhausted. but it was nice getting to spend some time with me friend.
okay and now to give my 2 cents worth of commentry..
'i hate valentine's day' is a really good movie! it doesn't have much action and fancy stuff.. but the dialouge is awesome. it srsly keeps you entertained throughout the entire show.makes you laugh and go 'awww' a lot.. so it's successful as a romance comedy. heh
'percy jackson'.. well the trailer really made it looked awesome..i suppose it made people excited about it.. and like place high expectations for it?...but it didn't really fufil those expectations. the plot is barely there. like most movie spin offs.. it's like trying to pick out various parts of the books here and there or whatever.. but point is when you watch the show. the story seems to lack substance ( probably the book is better) or rather appear boring (cause it really lacks meaningful/interesting dialougues.. the people in the show might as well not be saying anything)... then again i should give credit for those effects during those countless number of fights. that 'water fight' was impressionable enough.( maybe all they wanted out of the movie was just plain action? )the movie lacked enough 'wow' factor though. cause it can't make one come out of the movie and go ' oh wow! i love the movie. it was so cooollll!!'
* eye candy was the only thing i would say that made the movie more enjoyable*
like i say.. 2 cents worth. no offense to anybody who have differing opinions.
jeremy and i joined junie for pizza after.. with nick and grace. (: it was a nice dinner. loved the pizza ( aha prata style. heh inside joke) and our funny conversations ( wahaha. for privacy reasons i shan't blog about it)... all i can say is.. junie and jeremy are my favourite people.. they make me happy.
and yes.. mixed blood people are so beautiful/hot. grace is like jap and chinese. she said she' 90% jap though.. anw she's gorgeous. nice hair. pretty features.. oh yes. she is a fantastic drinker. she can hold her liquor really really well. ( then again, jeremy was telling me that all japanese hold their liquor well)
i so totally want to try out sake!! the sweet tasting kinds!!!
it's really nice to just walk along riverwalk and enjoy the breeze.. see the sights... and occasionally someone flying their plane ( gosh i want one... but it costs thousands. yikes).. it makes you feel calm.. and somewhat happy. (:
teehee.. i always seem to blog more on xanga. okay till then!
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| tuesday.
i met brian and pui san. san didn't want to play pool. so we went to sweson's (ps) to have ice cream. i like crunchy chocolate! ah ha. umm.. didn't hang out with isaac, brain and derek much. so oh well. too bad for them. went to the lib with san to borrow books. shared some of my thoughts with her...
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i can't really remember how i used to be like.what a joke huh?... i can't even remember my past self; or have i even changed much?
i feel like crying now. at least i'm not being emotionless.. haha.
being emotionless leaves me feeling empty, feeling lost, feeling alone and as though i'm living without a purpose.
a friend said ' i guess it's cos you've gotten slightly numb to emotion
because of, well, rough patches'
is that really true.. does that explain why i'm feeling like this?
it's that easy to sink into such a form of depression... yet easier to just turn to God for much needed comfort and assurance.
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if i could turn back the clock... i would really want my bestfriend back.
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| what shall i blog about today...
well i woke up... late ( as usual )
made isaac wait... okay we all made isaac wait. real sorry isaac!!
we gathered at j8..went with san to buy cards.. had lunch at macs. oh yes. i finally tried mcspicy!! like finally. it tastes awesome! aha
headed to lor chuan. nanyang jc... i didn't stay long.. went to ruo yu's house instead. we talked about her jc options, my poly stuff and watched dramas! teehee
hmm then i went to amk to meet up with the rest again.. we hanged out at popeyes. ate mashed potatoes!! it's really delicious..
we talked about life. haiz... i do hope we can keep in touch. (:
alright. i wonder how i'm going to keep this up. blogging about the things i do each day. hur hur. typing them out is boringgg. but. good to remember the things i do with people.
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i was mostly normal and happy yesterday. there were some sad moments. but in general i was okay...
then came today.. i was depressed the whole morning..
i felt very heavy and burdened. was thinking to myself.. how is poly life going to be like. i have to really really be more mature huh?.. what will happen to me.. will i lose my bubbly and cheery self?
but jerry was telling me.. 'we have many crazy people in poly who are like 10 year olds in 18 year old bodies.'
so i suppose i shan't worry too much then.
God will be there to help me find my own clique of people! haha
oh yea! i need a job man... parents aren't really enthusiastic bout me working in this fine dining restuarant... cause it's at an ummm shady district... :S
what other jobs man.. that pays me 7 bucks an hour and all i have to do is pass plates and clear tables...
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| do you know that feeling?... when you feel like crying.. and tears are forming in your eyes.. but you hold them back and keep all that in... yea...some feeling that is
i wonder if i'm normal.. or sane.
i didn't even cry as much as people who did way better than me. okay.. i'm glad my friends did well and those people out there.. but i'm just saying to illustrate my point.. that
i don't feel normal at all.
maybe it's the way i grieve. ..i'm grieving inside.. it's all kept within me.
syf was the exact same thing... that sort of feeling. like you want to feel sad, like really really sad, but then you just can't feel it. what are feelings anyway...
when i got back my results, i was thinking to myself... ' i want to run away and never come back'
maybe God has prepared my heart for this.. this disappointment.
and you know something... i actually had an inkling that things would turn out this way... but i was praying to God and saying ' please no, please no, i really want to do well.. i don't want awful grades'
but somehow i know that this is the plan for me...or not. i really want a different plan. i want to go to a jc. hang out with people i know, my friends. wear a uniform. have the same school hours as others..
yet now. i just might have to deal with.. starting school later than everyone else. going through 3 years of poly education. learning to be super independent. having great adaptability to mix with a different group of people.. and even thinking of what to wear every single day! gosh. i hate having to think of what to wear... uniforms ftw, srsly.
sighhhhhh
i want to mope. rawr
i want to cry.
i want to be self centered, and dwell in self pity and sorrow.
but.
i can't
and i shouldn't
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| 6 jan 2010.
went out with my fav pcps gang! isaac. brian. xun yi. darylene. and me!!
we did a lot of random nonsense.
at noon had lunch at tp cafe lobby. where we had the case of the rotten fruit! gross shit.
took a pretty long bus ride to paya lebar. went to collect darylene's pay. but her boss wasn't around!! so we walked around the area and went to this prata shop. i had tosai! it was freaking huge! like really. super filling.
went back to darylene's work place. it's called private affairs. the restuarant is like super fine dining. 168++ per person leh! crazy much.
so darylene got her check. she has moolah now. bleah i need moolah too.
we headed to bugis. walked around illuma. they wanted to watch old dogs... but due to the lack of support from people ( xun yi and i..heh) we didn't watch. went to the sky area.. and sat down. talked crap for a bit... but we were chased out by the security guard. oh well.
illuma has this real cool lan shop. i shall go there one day!! to play guitar hero! :D ( I have nv played it b4.)
went to ya kun. where isaac and xun yi bought a set meal. isaac finished all the eggs at one shot. xun yi sipped his ya kun coffee... it tastes not bad. (i tried :p) and the rest of us were being free loaders. we ate their peanut butter + kaya toast.
pui san cameee!! that silly girl walked all the way from city hall to bugis. she's a xiao zha bo. she said she wanted to save money... =.=
so we headed to bishan. and walked around. bought cards. went to open area to play!! ahaha. i love playing cards. (:
okay outing day has ended.. for me that is.
7th jan 2010
woke up late.
went to fetch christie and bran. walked around toa payoh buying snacks and lunch.. we took bout an hour... haha we love to waste time.
headed to my house. had lunch. talked crap. used com. painted nails. played tap tap. .. christie loves to lie on my bed. ( but well who doesn't? ahaha. it's so comfortable.. it's no wonder i wake up at 11 plus every day)
they baby sat adelyn.. she's horrors. a cute face.. but don't misjudge her. she's evillll. she is prone to violence and loud shouting.
oh yea. she likes christie and dislikes bran. ahaha. too bad for you bran!!
we took a cab to bishan after. uncle hl treated us to swenson's ice cream. we lurve ice creammm. it's awesome!! oh yea uncle hl told us about this volunteer programme. teaching basic english to china and vietnamese kids. anyone interested in helping out? :D
uncle hl drove us to his house after. it's real cool. it's one of those landed property opposite junction 8. his house is real pretty. it's like those you see in american movies. a one storey bungalow. with like trees. flowers. and all that.
we played guitar and piano in his house. taught brandon how to play the guitar. heh. and yeap. looked at uncle hl's children baby photos. daniel, andrew and mark!! daniel was real cute as a kid.. he's real handsome now too. :p
we chatted with aunty joy for a bit too. she's actually a master teacher! like omgsh. totally cool. she is really very smart... i'm in awe.
so yada yada.. went to christie's house for dinner! we camwhored lots using the macbook. aha. pictures are uploaded on fb. teehee.
dinner was fantastic. cereal prawns and curry chicken. i love love love her maid's cooking. *beams*
we played tap tap. hur hur. tap tap is my fav game.
okay time to go home...
8th jan.
currently i've just finished updating my xanga and am talking to isaac. going to meet brain and isaac soon. we're going to visit sg poly! :D :D
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